Autumn leaves and the BuddhaChrist

This was Gertrude's spring this morning, coloured by all the autumn leaves....
Tomorrow, I have my 'dansk prøve i 3' test, where I get to show how much of the Danish I've learnt for the last two and a half years I have remembered (or not!). I might need it to help me get residency in Denmark, when my current permit expires, but that depends on whether the EU and Britain can make any agreements with each other, hmmm! :-0
So I went and studied a bit at the library this morning, and then when my brain had had enough, I had a good walk around some of the different springs and listened to the second part of a 'Christ/Buddha' aligning with the cosmic heart course that I'm doing with Pippa Merrivale https://www.divinehealingclinic.com/ and I felt as I was walking round, and sensing the different energy lines, that the energies that we were connecting with on the course, were flowing down through me, and being seeded into the earth ascension grid here. I really loved that Pippa said that earth, and heart are the same word, just the letters in a different order - I have never noticed that before, but it's mostly through connecting to these special earth energies that one finds in the world, that I have got to fully feel centred in my heart. As far back as I can consciously remember, I have felt heavy around my heart centre. I don't know if I 'came in' with it. I remember feeling my Mum's unhappy feelings, when I was a baby in the womb, so even then I don't remember feeling at ease. And I have cleared so much stuff now, from this life, past lives... and it's still there. But now on this course, we are working with the heart so I will see if there's any shift - or insight that comes. On the course, we've been connecting to Metatron/Buddha/Christ through the heart, and it just feels really sore and achy there...... But that's better than just feeling heavy, so I think it's a step in the right direction!!!
And then after I had my walk, I had an appointment with my doctor, about the vertigo attack I had a few weeks ago. She said she couldn't help me as she doesn't know anything particularly about how to manage these things. And she wanted me to go back and see the local ENT (ear, nose and throat) doctor, but as I saw him before several times before, and then he couldn't do anything else for me and referred me onto to a hearing specialist. So I asked her if I could perhaps not go through that whole referral procedure again, and perhaps see the hearing specialist directly. She seemed a little doubtful about this, but said she would try. Let's see what happens. I felt a little depressed about it all. I keep hearing people saying they can't help me (like at the emergency department) and that I need to see the hearing specialist again, but it doesn't seem to be that easy to achieve!!! But also it's a bit depressing because a Meniere's diagnosis is not something anybody wants to have. I keep having 'God's perfect plan for me is built upon a rock' go round my head in these moments. I don't know where it's coming from, but I do know, that if this is the case, and Meniere's is what is happening here, which it does seem to be, then my 'spirituality' is the thing that will pull me through, and that I need to pull hard on it.
Now I going to sit in silence with my Sarah candle and get (hopefully) a bit of peace!